Can We Put that Miracle on Hold?

1 12 2017

Im sitting in the MRI waiting room.

My son is sedated and having his brain scanned. We’re looking for more answers or clarification of information we already have.

I’m trying not to stress about the results of my foster son’s second MRI.

But not for the reasons you might think.

Our foster son’s adoption case hinges heavily on the previous MRI which showed some abnormalities.

What if the scan comes back normal? This could potentially give the parent’s attorney a little more ammunition to dissuade the judge from granting the termination of parental rights when he hears the case at the end of January.

A normal MRI also leaves us with more questions. It actually takes away possible answers. I mean, we kind of have an explanation for his multiple delays. We’re just not sure how/if it applies yet. We’re still in the information gathering period.

But something is going on with my son. The neurologist listed his diagnosis as global delays. Not only do we have delays – some profound – we’ve seen regression in some areas as well this year.

I’m advocating my butt off for him trying to get him seen so we can unravel what’s going on. Then I can make sure we’re meeting all of his needs correctly. The abnormal MRI from last year can be a significant puzzle piece.

So I’m conflicted.

I would love to see a miracle. But I dread it a little at the same time. And it stinks that I’m sitting here in an empty waiting room worried about seeing a miracle. Who does that?

But I believe in a God of miracles. So I’m also working on moving the fear out and making room for the faith. Faith that whatever happens, it’s in His hands.

No matter the results, we’ll navigate them and I’ll continue to advocate for my son.


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